Wednesday, July 8, 2009

I don't have many friends. Most of the time I'm okay with that. Actually, most of the time I don't even think about it. Originally, that was one of the reasons I wanted to start my other blog. Sometimes I feel like I have things I need to say, but no one really to tell them to. I hold back things on the other blog because there are a few people I know "in real life" who read it, and I guess I don't want to say things to offend anyone, but sometimes I don't feel like I can be myself. I feel like I have to be nice all of the time, and damn it, sometimes I'm just not nice. That's a big reason why I haven't posted much in the past few months. Sometimes I just need to bitch and complain to get things off my chest. I wrote a similar post a while back. Then I got busy with sewing and cakes and couponing, and that part of my life sort of took over my other blog. So even though I said I was going to do and say what I wanted there...that didn't really happen. So yeah, I'm a hypocrite. I never said I wasn't.

Sometimes I feel like I'm two separate people living in the same body. There's the part of me that is a good, sweet, Christian housewife who loves to cook and bake and sew. Then there's the part of me that likes to watch Southpark and Boondocks, and play video games, and complain, and cuss, and be sarcastic, and say mean things about people. Both of these people are who I am. These people are like night and day.

So, I've started this blog to write about the things I don't feel like I can say elsewhere. The other one is for the couponing, cooking, baking, sewing, housewifey part of who I am, and this one is for the other, more personal stuff that the people who follow my other blog may not want to read. I will probably talk about a lot of stupid shit, and cuss a lot and complain a lot. And there will be a lot of crude humor. This will be more about my everyday life I suppose.

If you read something you don't like here, stop fucking reading it. I will say that again. IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY - DON'T READ IT!!! If you don't agree with my political views or morals, well, that's your problem. If I know you, you may get talked about. Get over it. Yeah, I'm a mean bitch. But I'm usually a pretty funny mean bitch. Maybe that is why I'm socially awkward.